The end

This is the end

I am sorry

I don't run

I don't chase

I don't go after something that doesn't want me

I just don't..

I am too old for this shit

I loved you more than anything

I would have done anything for you

I would have..

But I am bored of this shit..

You want to play?

I don't have the space or energy for that..

I am too old for this shit..

I loved you

But I love me more

And I do matter for what it's worth

I am too tired of this shit..

I thought of you but you didn't

I missed you but you didn't

I waited..

And waited

But you didn't show up

I am done..

I thought that this could be..

But it didn't 

I thought that maybe..

But it wasn't

Then again I remembered

I value myself

I am wasting my time

And it hit me..

This is the end of this bullshit

Odd

"You meet people for a reason"

They say

"You learn lessons from people you meet"

They say

Seems a bit odd

I haven't figured either one when it comes to you..

Knowing you 

Loving you

Missing you

All seems a bit odd

Lost in my thoughts because of you

Lost in my understandings that I always knew because of you

Because...

All seems a bit odd

Which always leads me back to you..

You make me feel things I have never felt

Feelings of being normal

Feelings of being wanted

Feelings of being loved

Yet all seems a bit odd

Not understanding you

Not knowing you

Not feeling you

It's a sad dream yet feels beautiful 

If only you knew how special you are

If only you knew how beautiful you are

If...

But all seems a bit odd

2020

A decade has passed and a new one starts...
Is it fear?
Is it worry?
"It's always the same" or so I thought...
But then I whispered to myself..
"How will it change if I don't change that thought?"
That's when I felt it..
That's when it hit me..
A decade has indeed passed
A decade I must let go...
There's a new path waiting for me
A new start to grab
A new beginning
I have to bid my farewell to the past and send my forgiveness
And welcome the future with an open heart and warmness

Just like how I want it to be
Just like how I deserve to be treated...